I may not be wise in my decision
sometimes, I know that's stupid but i still choose to be stupid
but, I believe nothing is a waste in the end
I certainly have my reasons for some decisions
no matter those reasons are valid or not
I certainly will gain something in my own way

I do have time, but I will never be ready no matter how much time is given to me
I ll never really seriously get started if I am given time
sometimes, i just rely on my gut feeling to kick myself start
since gut feeling relies on System 1 in my brain, instead of System 2
it probably results in unwise decision
and yes, even I feel unwise when decide it
but still, from my view of point it is a gain anyway
and most importantly, it straight kicks me start without having to find the courage that I never can find

Furthermore, that decision don't even decide anything yet
there's still room for reject
Anyway, now I learn that, I will not mention this to anyone
even if at the end I do not reject and decide to do this
because with all the complex feeling I have
I only need things that push me forward instead of setting me back

However, I appreciate those honest opinions
its way more better than people who bluffing around to comfort me
but, I wonder, what type of comments I will receive when I face unhappy things in the decisions
will I get real support or the "I told you so" expression?

Aha ~ Be calm, Be Stea~dy

毕业了
失业了

回顾过去，平平又凡凡
展望未来，前途还渺茫

幼儿园     －三年（或两年？）
小学        － 六年
中学        － 五年
大学预科 － 一年半
大学        － 约三年半

活了二十三年半，有十八十九年是活在这“教育系统”中
是宝贵，也是点浪费；我的青春呐 ～
应该会止于此，然后又几十年以打工一族身份生活
不再能像学生时期般的悠哉自由
是辛苦，也是会幸福； 我的人生呐 ～

准备好与否，给自己的时间到了，就要出来社会了；
有如孩童时初入幼儿园，又得重新学习一切
不同的是， 以前有人可靠，以后得靠自己
不同的是， 以前没什么压力，以后会有一定的负担

未来对我来说还迷茫，只知道有个未来是自己想要的
其余的，会先以这个想要的未来为出发点而努力

希望今年，前途可以清晰起来。。。一定能的
语言有言灵，文字有没有文灵呢？
有的话，写出来的愿望能实现吧？