I may not be wise in my decision
sometimes, I know that's stupid but i still choose to be stupid
but, I believe nothing is a waste in the end
I certainly have my reasons for some decisions
no matter those reasons are valid or not
I certainly will gain something in my own way

I do have time, but I will never be ready no matter how much time is given to me
I ll never really seriously get started if I am given time
sometimes, i just rely on my gut feeling to kick myself start
since gut feeling relies on System 1 in my brain, instead of System 2
it probably results in unwise decision
and yes, even I feel unwise when decide it
but still, from my view of point it is a gain anyway
and most importantly, it straight kicks me start without having to find the courage that I never can find

Furthermore, that decision don't even decide anything yet
there's still room for reject
Anyway, now I learn that, I will not mention this to anyone
even if at the end I do not reject and decide to do this
because with all the complex feeling I have
I only need things that push me forward instead of setting me back

However, I appreciate those honest opinions
its way more better than people who bluffing around to comfort me
but, I wonder, what type of comments I will receive when I face unhappy things in the decisions
will I get real support or the "I told you so" expression?

Aha ~ Be calm, Be Stea~dy